today was fun.
first period.cd.did not do much.

I AM DEPRESSED?I AM?
second period history.
mrs yeo start saying something about depression:"the symtoms are lik cannot eat blahblahblah.does anyone here suffer from it?"
guan wei looks at me and says something lik:"can you get out of your depressed world?"
me:"huh??i am depressed??realli?i don even noe?!?wad make you think so?"
guan wei:"something tat you do?"
me:"realli?ok~"
then i turn back and look at elaine
me:"do you suffer from depression?"
elaine shakes head.
me:"do i?"
elaine shakes head :"why?"
me:"he says so??but even if i did i would lose appetite.then i would have lost weight le.i wish i got la.den can lose weight"
elaine:"you get depression then lose weight.lose le i bring you out."
me:"hmm ya hor.i wan!!!"
us:"LOLS!!!"

then was recess.then stupid chinese.at first i thought mr chua was nice.but he is more mand more er xin.just don noe why???

then maths.

english-debate.sat with esther.was laughing all the way.and as usual doing stupid stuff=)))
one thing we did was...
me.esther.pointing on a piece of empty transparent plastic folder thingy:"jin chong this home work is tomorrow pass up or next week?"
it wasnt tat fast.we lik tried three four times b4 we could stop laughing and ask him.
and all he could say was CRAZY.cant he be more sporty and play along?he always lik tat de-.-
and duhh.i was doing those stupid actions.tat obviously made esther laugh.BUT WAD DID I GET IN THE END?JUST ALL ESTHER'S WHACKING!!!

anyway.went bk and then headed home.
tats all for today=)

to her:
i don lik you.why must you try and be better then me in the things i am better at?
why must you try and snatch my fren??when i am close to her?
no one liks you.no one at all~
you are better then me.you are thin you are more boy-attracting.so must you fight with me for the little things i have?
must you?
must you always be soo attention seeking?
must you?cant you just be yourself for once?
must you copy ppl.
must you copy me?
must you copy me and also use it wrongly?
must you do all this shit?
i hate you more and more.please change.for the sake of your frenship with anyone.
we eva told you abt these.all you did was go orh~
and then do nothing about it.fuck!
and the worst part.i hav no one to tok to about all this shit.

i am gonna do this all the time.cos nothing seems to hav left me.
i don mind the memories.but not the feelings for you.
must it always go this way?
eva since you left.i hav so many problems.and i just cant find someone i realli realli trust.
to pour out my feelings to.
can we still be frens?
although at the same time i might still hav feelings for you.but still we can be frens right?
i feel i only trust you the most.there are just somethings i cant just tell esther or lynette.
its just somethings tat i feel uncomfortable toking to them about.
but you are just the one.this realli sucks!

smile!