i have totally forgotten what happened recently.
i know i watched deathnote<3
know what i wanna take next year.
and then forgot le.

deathnote is nice.
althoguh i do not agree on how shuai L is.
i just think he is very cute the way he is eating sweets like 24/7
the way he squats on the sofa.
very funny and cute. its just cute all the way.
cannot wait till the second show comes.where it gets more and more exciting.
more and more xi-shen.

i am taking
ss/hist, pure bio, combine chem and physics, POA.

i suddenly realise how all the sciences are so very easy to me.
and that i like all of them
but i never seem to be able to excel=(

the last day of sch was kinda very sad la.
the way everyone was going around and leaving and mark that they were there as two-fourains before.
its so sweet okay. i will miss twofour<33

thats about all i can remember.
toodles!


lets talk about yesterday.

it was hari raya so no sch.
went out with ling, eliz, gapo and tas came!
had lunch. then went to yishun safra le.
took cab there. very lazy=D
reached. we had to wait for like one hour.
so we went to arcade. play that dancing one. then that gapo.
itchy leg. go and chose hard. in the end. its was like...

went over to bowling allay.
played bowling and stuff. funnn.
some kid went to pick up gapo's ball.and dropped it.
they dint even bother to say sorry until we asked them to.
thats woman wa like whining away on how hard the ball was.
young parents these days.. they need to learn some respect.

but we dint let that spoil our day.
i striked once okay.
i was so happy/ shocked!

went home went for dinner at some indian banana leaf restaurant.
when i was walking to the car.
i saw this broken statue like bird.
i looked closly...
it was a dead bird T.T
i freaked out okay. and rannn farfaraway from it.
holycrap. it was damn grosss!

this morn. woke up. after this dream that i had menses.
i realli had it when i woke up in the morn T.T

today had norm sch. but only spent like 20 mins in class.
so no card games=((
went for choir after sch.
cramped all the way. felt like dying lor.
i hate it when it starts cramping.
had like no mood doing anything at all.
maybe it was cos got aircon. cos after awhile. it got better.

leaving class an hour earlier for some reharsel for this sat.
good ot bad thing? i dont know.
haven fan ben yet.
gonna eat up alll of jinchong's money tomorrow.
wish me luck lor!

byebye!


and early in the morning.
some stupid bird starts screaming from that tree beside my window.
sooo freaking pissed off lor.
its like 5 in the morn la!~

normal sch.
had some realli extremely lame talk by rada.
like err. till now. i dont realli get what it was all about.

pon-ed choir.
in the end. there wasnt choir afterall.
lame lor.

went around looking at prices.
going out tomorrow.
only if i went to walk in the morn with mom.
she is so evil haobuhao.

i just found out how richhh eddie is okay.
i am sooo jealous!
i wanna be his sister lor
then straight away flyyy to england and stay forever!
marry and white and have cute babies<33


back.
the weather here is nicee.
i miss my bed and everything on it<3
cant wait to sleep tonight.

sleeping in pj was abit hard.
cos no bolster. haha.but got air-con.

shopped at 1 utama.
for only one day.
got some stuff only.
a pair of earings, some magi bottle thing, a wallet and a shorts, shoe, no more le T.T
not enough lor. december wanna buy manymany!

going go cameron highlands, chang mai, and kl.
with leng gu's family and joyce gu's.
cannot wait okay. for once dont need to sleep in that old apartment.
the one that pa alng with his 6/7 siblings stayed in.
its like so small la. two bed rooms.
one smallll toilet, one smalll kitchen.
i wonder how papa they all could live in there.

i miss gerger/poupou.
she is so cute. cannot wait to see her again.
cant wait to my doggy comes!

day 1.
reached. ate dinner, watch two movies.
ice age 2, she the man.

day 2.
ate breakfast, then lunch.
went shopping at one utama, ate dinner
watch another two movies.
da vinci code, eight below.
i just love da vinci code okay.
seriously. people should watch it.
its like you mgiht not evern know that much.
even if you are a christian.
the story about the holy grail,
the last meal for jesus.
everything they explain and say.
makes sooo much snese.
i will pester papa to buy the dvd.
so i can watch again and again.

day 3.
had branch.
then started to pack and prepare to go home le.

(notice how i never miss out a single meal of the day? that two freaking pounds for me!)

wish i could watch the grudge two.
anyone?

thats about all.
gonna try out my earing!
byebyee.

HAPPY BELATED BDAY TO JIEJIE<3

"sabo-ed' by sylvia liew.
i'll do it cos she put my name first=)))
and i also never do before=(haha

1. single, taken, waiting or crushing ? singlee! and very happy.
2. are you happy with your life now ? like duhh.see-ing me lessy darling everyday<33
3.when you meet the right person , will you fall for him/her fast ? depends, but maybe not.
4.have you had ur heart broken ? everyone has right?
5.do you believe that there are circumstances when cheating love is acceptable ? NEVER. which every idoit is doing that. is bloody desplicable. to hell they go!
6.would you talk to someone if he/she cheats on you ? dont think so.
7.have you talk to another person about your marriage before ? i think so. but not so sure le. very long time ago le ba.
8.do you wan children ?YES. veryveryvery much<3
9.how many ?3? or as many i can?
10.would you consider adoption ? not unless i can not have any/
11.if someome like you right now, wad do u think will let you noe his/her feelings ? if they told me?!?
12.do you enjoy getting into a relationship ? not realli.
13.be honest, what did you and your ex did? messaging? preety much all.
14.do you believe at love at first sight ? depends ba. might be infatuation.
15.are u romantic ? you say leh?
16.do you believe you can change someone ? maybe. if i can change myself. i can change someone else.
17.if you could marry somewhere else, were would it be ?the beatiful places. VICTORIA<33
18.do you easily give in when you are fighting ? nope. i will fight till the end. if not its very paiseh de.
19.do you have feelings for someone rite now ? nahh
20.have you ever wished you could have someone but you messed it up ? dont know. dont think so.
21.have you ever broken a heart ? nope.
22.one day, if yr best friend fall in love wif he/she tt you are deeply in love wif, wad would you do ? like that lor. wad can i do? kill her??
23.are you missing someone right now ? ya. my grandpa<333

5 person going to be sabotage by me!
ling,
qiqin,
marilyn,
lynette,
whom ever that is bored.

(i not like sylvia.sooo greedy!)

school was okay.
same old gamble.
won quite alot though $.$
poker is like soo nice la. can earn alot at once de.

going off to kl tomorrow. cannot wait to see the dog gugu has.
change money. so prolly will buy back some stuff.
and jiejie's bday present.
havent got her's yet.=/
sorry jiejie!

it also means i cannot watch death note le.
but according to tong.
its nc16? this make me so pissed lor.
i wish the people will make a 14-16 something.
then atleast i can watch ma.
like silent hill. it was sooo freaking lame lor.
and they put nc?!?!? i dint even scream!

something is very extermely wrong with this world!

went some moutain walk with gonggong just now.
to look for mountian pig,
lucky founf something in the bushes.
i heard it growl. gong says its prolly a monkey.
but i was freaked out for that while lor.
and gong still wanna continue walking. haha.
but atleast i dint while away my time sleeping.

HAPPY BELATED BDAY TO JIEJIE<3


its has been majong, tai di, cheat, blackjack.
this few days. all we could do is gamble, gamble, gamble.
atleast we arent doing it illegally right?

so i have nothing much to write about.
today wore the stupid choir dress.
i hope they design the new one soon.
cos i am gonna burst out of mine le. haha

tomorrow gonna watch death note.
i dont realli know much about this show lor.
but ling seems to be very eager to watch it.
since the other tiome watching silk.
so i guess it should be some kinda nice show=)

thats all for today.
marilyn show me the skin she helping me make.
and she say not perfect lor.
how can? its sooo pretty can?
i shall put her name there BIGBIG.=)
i am not being sacarstic.


the ivan-and-ling thing is making me so..
feel like crying. all of a sudden.
i remember everything. and duh dont feel good about it.

it remined me of how he apologised again and again for accusing me.
now. i feel so. dont-know-what.

when i found out. i felt i was cheated.
or something like i was kept in the dark for so long.
i remembered how lynette dint tell me the truth.
and make me end up like some kinda stupid loser.
though i am not blaming her or anything.

it feels like its the end of the world now.
i am not the girl that dare to call lynette and start crying.
i never knew how to put it to elaine or ling or fizzy.
it would just feel so weird.
sylvia is having problems of her own now.
i dint wanna give her more.
but maybe i wont even know how to put it to her too.

it seems i am gonna bottle up everything.
and faint one day. then die or something.

it seems like everything is breaking.
like i am in the twim towers.
experiencing the crash. but only inside.
i am stuck in the rubble.
telling others my last wishes.
except no one is there to listen.

he hates me. i know it.

but why is every guy so materialistic?

it feels hard to like now.
it would be just too weird to.

i cant cry. nor will i do any exterior damage to myself.

anyone knows a way that i can let it alll out?
anyone at all?

i am not trying to seek any attention.
or wadsoever. i am just letting everyone to know.
never to get themselves into this trouble.
you dont have to care for me.
or lend me any shoulder.
i guess this is all just part of our lives?

i finally understood how it feel when its the end of the world.
it hurts alot.


new blog song. its a malay song.
so dont be too surprised.
i like it. so i thought something new for once.
not always chinese or english.
very boring le.

today.
went cwp. ate. walked to badminton court.
was screaming on the way.
it was very fun. haha.
make tose sounds.
it was very funny la.
then we j-walked across the road.
screaming too. it was scary ma.
haha. qinghao very ashmaed to be together with us.
i saw the people looking at us. haha.
funfunfun!

played badminton. i am starting to like the game le.
can ask gorgor to pei me play.
if i find the rackets. haha.
ages since we have played lor. and i mean years.

the game was okay. finally could serve properly.
atlast i perspired<3



that feeling i could not explain.
it was neither happiness. nor dissapointment.
it felt though i was being cheated on.
when i wasnt. but i'll look forward.
i shall only remember the happy stuff.
and let it go.

i feel like i am dying inside.
i wished i was dead.
all my organs. seem like its crashing.
and i really want to die.

goodbye my lover. goodbye my friend.


went to catch a movie today.
silk. i dont realli know how to explain what i think of the show.
but if you are very timid..
i realli suggest you dont watch.
i freaked out afew times la. cos the face will like appear of no where.
thats what they lovee to do. then no pupils so kinda freaky.
i feel so sian in cannot watch other scarier show lor.
i wish they made something 14.
if not ban us from watching so many shows.
we arent 10 year olds okay.

then i sit beside qinghao.
so i like asked him
how come they always die at that position de?
its like forever that way.
the director cannot think of more er xin poses meh?
then qinghao says cos they pose very cute ma.
-.- lame.but haha funny la.
he claims we should think on the brighter side..

my dear sylvia. so kelian.
but i dont even know how to help her=(
i'll just wish her all the best <33
i dont know how to give you advice.
but i know my shoulder will always be there for you okay?


so played majong this whole afternoon.
ask mummy where the set was.
and she was like no bringing your friends over and gambling.
then i went to the storeroom and find again.
walla! i found it.
playedplayedplayed.

was suppose to do art.
cos like duhh i will give some excuse tomorrow and not do it.
i am so dead.
i dont even know what i am suppose to do la.

freaking out. tomorrow is chinese.
school is dumb to arrange it like this lor.
haha. cant wait till wed!
seoul garden.

cut my hair yesterday.
its like sooo bao now.
and loveee it<333
i dont know how to describe la.
but i feel like i have no hair now. so light!

thats about it.
bo more tuition.
but need to finish the chinese de.
waste of money and time!

dreamt of you two days striaght. but why?
my heart has felt you. but has my mind?
i really dont know.

looking forward everytime i go down stairs.
then i can see my prince william<33
he is soooo freaking shuai can?
he is just abit short.
but he is just soooo shuai.
he is fillal and shuai.
wad else do you want in a guy than that?


tuition in the morning.
very happy. cos now i know what i wanna be when i grow up.
atleast what i have to do. to be what i wanna be.
rene ask me to concentrate on bio and chem.
i i will take then next year.
but not pure. he say its very 'concentrated' cos its PURE.
then i will go poly. not take a levels.
cos a level's arent of much of a point.
if you pass. you go uni. good.
but if you fail? wad? go poly all over agian?!?
after poly. namely SINGAPORE POLY.
cos after that i wanna go overbroad and if they ask you whish poly you come from.
what you say? nanyang poly?(they will think you from china)
ngee ann?they dont know what it is! unlike SINGAPORE poly.
right. make sense?

so now lets see.
i wanted to be...
singer? lols.
nurse(cos of bio and chem)
biologist.
any area of nursing and got to do with bio and chem
why? cos everyone will get sick right?
so the hospitals will never run out of jobs!

singer-
quite hard la. unless i go and learn in some famous singing sch.
or get jay lim as my instrutor(i dont mind!)
then some taiwan people come over and REALISE my talent.
i'd be then next stephanie. on the other hand.
how many of us get that sooo lucky chance?
so singer is off my list.

the rest is still on my list. is got to do with my fav subs hello?
haha.so i better pass my science prettypretty or i will kill myself.


went to watch World Trade Center.
the show is nice la.
like if the bombing was like a one day effect to you.
then go and watch it you heart-less creature.
like only 20 people were saved out of the ruble.
its such a sad thing. i hate osama.
veryveryvery much. everyone hates him ba.

and beacuse of the show.
i am so gonna fail my history.
haha. it was hard?

today's science paper. was like easy!
i am like so happy. but i dont wanna be too happy.
later will fail de. home econs was okay.
but dint realli study properly.
so not all i know how to ans.
and thanks to the sweets with me.
i managed to 'copy' out some ans.

went for lunch at macs. then went to playground.
it was funn. played here and there.
but i dont like the place. its sooo filthy.

omg. some people like fixed password in their blog.
and start complaining about other people and stuff.
lols. i am like very disgusted.
they are like so act chio.
the whole family disgust me. i am sorry.
i dint wanna do this. but you think too highly about yourself.
hacking in was so easy. cos it was like damn slow?
so ya. even if you changed the password. i'll be there.
wads up with your sister? dont you feel embarrassed to have her?
like err. no offence la. anyway you two also the same.
enough of comments. stay pretty my girls=/

you make me wanna puke.

see-ing dint seem to give that jump anymore.
i guess i am all over you.


i feel like a helpless creature,
rolling around endlessly.
why hasnt the monster come and kill me yet?

school was okay. atleast exam was.
went home straight. then went for tuition.
going to watch the preview of World Trade Center,
anyone jealous? haha.
i know you are~

tomorrow is hist? i haven study yet.
i guess i am just waiting to be sec two all over again.


and so what if i abuse'd you verbally. cant you just say something.
and make me forget. like asking me to forget you?
but you just could'nt. so serves you right.
i'll prolly just keep on harrassing you till you tell me to forget you. =P

normal day. nothing much to talk about.
really gotta get a job for the hols.
anyone intro abit? wanna go to the malls nearby and look.
then i wont have to travel so far. where you can be seen.


but why would you wanna forget something that is just beautiful?

so what if you dont wish to rake up the past.
i still wanna know?!?


Don't take too long to say
I love you to the ones you love
Cause time has a habit of slipping away