came back at 10+ last night,
was soo freaking tired la.
slept straight away.

go there so early, also quite lame la.
we just had 20-30 mins of reharsel,
then went for sat there see angmokio, and deyi rehears.
had very early dinner, then went to change le.
lucky i altered my dress.
it was comfyyy.

had to do make up,
and lynette helped me do eye shadow,
loved it, but i had to use glasses, so it wasnt that obvious.

i dare to say, the the two of our make up was the most awesome ones=D
seriously, i not hao-lianing.
but the make up they did for the rest, was soooo thick.
and the lipstick they had, SUCKED big time.
me and lynette had gloss on, and its was sooo nice=)

performed. wasnt that scary la.
but i thought for banguet fugue, our movements, was so extra.
in a way, we all did not want to do, then just anyhow do.

but hila sad it was great.
i was like really? cos i dint know how to know.

had the finale.
took pics and went home.

i have to admit.
he is getting more good looking, cute and nice.
not like last time. which is good=)
right lynette?=)

when i thought i had found a bunch of good friends,
they act like they care.
i wouldnt blame them.
but i hate it when you know of something, and dnt tell me.
worst of all, you act though nothing happened.
i am so dissapointed in you.

pictures? when i gt it from them.
regretttt not bring my cam.
should have listen to lynette=(





my tuition teacher ask me,
is your chem teacher fierce?
i dint know what to say, cos mr choeng is neither fierce, nor not fierce.
so i siad, erm, he is a little naggy la.
i cant belief i said that la!~

i know why H2O i sticked together.
cos they share the electrons.
i think mr cheong will teach us soon.

i really hate the fact that my physics i oulling the whole of my combines down.
i got A1 for chem, but failed my phy,
which pulled everything down to a B4/C5.







i dont know what you want, and i dont know what is on your mind.
i dont even know why i bother.
i hate the way you are so fickled, i hate the way you are so ignorant.
but then again, i dont even know why i should be affected by all of that.

school was alright.

i dint kow how to react to your letter,
and really hope you werent dissapointed.
but trust me. i love you more then her.<3

i freaked out and pissed off at what a person you are.


i'm fcuking pissed,
and really feel like blogging about every-single-fucking-thing about you.
but i chose not to go as low as you would.

school was great.
i was really very happy gossiping about y-o-u.

that really all.
off to watch 100% entertaintment. byebyeee



school was okay.
i thought i was kinda lucky today, the things i did not bring or do,
was the things, teacher did not ask for, or every one else did not do too=D
trying hard to finish math tuition's work, but its so diff.
i get stuck very easily.
and i hate that.

choir was alright, i have to photocopy my passport cos i dint go for choir camp.
its kinda lame- when its for real,
but scary when you lied.

came home.
and had a hard time coaxing toby into the toilet for his bathe.
cleaned him up,
then myself, and gad dinner.

and now, he is annoying me.
he always does that.
i mean , i know he is bored, but he always does it.
he bring a toy to you, and presses it on your leg,
though threatening to bite your meat along with it.
so i try to play with him. maybe fetch?
so maybe at the start, he wont give up the toy,
but even after fetching it back, he never lets it go.
it irritates me la, then when you try to take it form he,
he growls, and never let go, even after i carry him off the ground,
his teeth are really strnong!

but then again, that patch on his face, always make me xin luan.
yesterday when we came home,
he was naughty so i scolded him la,
after that, i think he was emotionally unstable or something.
he took his toy and walk all over the house,
like wanteing to look for a spot to play by himself,
but creis at the same time,
cute, or poor thing?

i seriously hope my post wasnt sacarstic, mean, teasing, calling people names, or whate so ever.


haven blogged for like a week.
in msia now, and wondering if lynette got in!
prob is, she aint online. feel so argish.

the week was spent like that.
with no work done.

mon, slacked the whole day,
killing, i was forcing my self to either fall asleep, or watch tv.

tues, sch, tuition.
wed movie.
thurs, physics.
fri left for msia.

yesterday. on the way here,
i suddenly felt like learning to knit.
a scarf for my grandma.
and whom ever.
lunch was yummmyyyyyy<3

today, drove for two hours to tapah,
to pray, dad asked me to go to granddads neighbours, and offer joss sticks,
and went around, and started to look and the year they passed away,
its was all like, 1993, 1992, 1988.
i am like so shocked, and sad la.
their graves look so unlively,
like no one came to see them.
if their children, grandchildren, dont come to see them,
then they are bad. i mean. i dont know.
if i die, i definitely want ppl to see me often, of i'd be lonely.

we then drove up to cameron.
went to the apartment to look if we could salvage some antique stuff.
i found treasure!

this paper, like calender? exactly on my burthday=D
maybe someone tore it out when i was born or something.
i found some old letters, which i couldnt really understand,
but dad wanted to keep it anyway.
some photoes of grandad,
and some really old stuff.
radios? and paper cutter,i regret not taking the paper cutter, maybe next trip.
and i found this birthday card, from all my dad siblings to my grandma,
it was swet, maybe i will give it to grandma on the aust trip this june.
she'd be happy=D

another five hour trip down.
TIRING okay.
i sat in the car for ten hours today.
six yesterday, and tomorrow.
i wouldnt be missing the car for awhile~

i take photoes of all the stuff, and load it up when i reach singapore.
that about it. byebyeee.

all the colored stuff might soud very random to you, but they mean to me.
okay, ESTHER!=P


the day out with toby.

we went to that pets movers place.
i saw many puupies there.
and they are freaking cute.
the lab pups, chihuahua pups, and more
the chihuahua's are seriously small okay.
i felt like i could spueesh then to death with one palm.

toby went crazy, and cos i was carrying him.
he like moved here and there, so hard to mange.

went to this 'playground' place.
where there were many dogs,
russells, huskeys, lab, retrivers, schnauzers, jap chin, poodles, cockle spanners.
they poo-ed and the onwers did not do anything about it.
what irresponsible idoits.

AND i saw this poodle that was HUGEEE,
and i mean HUGEE.
i dont know if it was a normal breed,
but it did not seem so to me.
it was taller then the retriever, lab, and husky it was playing with.
FREAKKYYYY. its black and big. i cannot imagine la.
amybe its taller then my sitting on the floor.
ITS THAT TALL OKAY!
and its suppose to be a POODLE.
maybe they mixed it with some lab or something.
but its was a guy that went around lifting its leg and pee-ing alll over.

then there was this on 'heat' russell female,
and toby went on it. freaked me out.
i wondered, what if they rerally had sex?
how was i gonna be responsible for what toby did?
i cant imagine~

got toby a box atlast. the ones they use to keep them?
not cardboard ones=D
he cried the whole way back.
gave up, when we were about to reach.
veryyy marfan boy.

i hate myself for not being able to achievemy dreams because i have no guts.
i stopped ballet because i had not guts to dance in front of my dad.
if not, i might still bedancing and perfoming and stuff,
and would not be fat like now.
and would be able to do splits!
i've been having dreams of my doing them, i actually yearn for it that much okay.
i hated myself for not having the guts to wear the swimsuit. infront of others cos i'm fat.
if not, by now, i'dd have gotten loads of gold medals.
i HATE myself for not having the guts to join campus superstar.
i skipped it last year and will too, this time.
i admire others guts, to go for it.
i wish i had it too.


tuition soon.
school was alright, but nothing worth me blogging la.
had lunch and came home.

watched tv and feel asleep,
with tobe, beside me.
btw, he is gonna be an eunuch soon!
dont whether to be happy, or sad for him.

on one hand, he wouldnt mastebate on you or anything at home.
and wont be able to left his leg and pee.
but then, we would deprive him of something natural.'sex'

i suddenly wonder if dogs get std and stuff.

bathe, walk out of bathe room,
and caught tobe in an very awkward position.
shitting, mom had actualli fed him pistacho nuts the night before.
and they were never digested, NEVER.
i saw one whole piece.
i cannot imagine what happens if tobe ate it again=/


school was okay. inequalities is fun!
except the drawing of graphs though.
cos i want it to look nice a perfect.
i make sure its all straight, and the points are alll there.

brought toby to run just now,
and he went crazy pulling me along.
i forced him down the slide,
causing him to POOF pass a ppile of sand before lkanging on the floor flat.
haha so cute.

just now when i wanted to bathe, he followed.
i wanted to like sayang him, he thought i was gonna bathe him or something,
he kept siaming me, ahha. so cute la.
i love bebeee.

doing something with my blog song,
and really dont know what i am gonna do with my blog skin.


i cant love you, and so i wont.

i felt so sinful after having lunch.
i imagined my self making my slef puke.
then freaked out thinking, what if i continue.
i mean, how does one actually dare to stuff their fingers into their throats.
what exactly are they thinking when they do it?

failed chem by half mark,
i am so dissapointed in myself=(

mr cheong made me some leader of InE.
inovation and enterprise.
and i am suppose to recruit members,
so far four, anymore?(i'll try not to think if i like you anot=))
im kinda looking forward to whatever i have to do,
but i hope i dont get bored and not bother=/

choir tmr, and i do not dread it. haha.
but there is physics test, and 2.4 run.
hope it pours then.


i've fallen for someone i never knew well.
how to say, he turned out to be a monster?
i dont know~

skipped fat club- i woke up at exactly 6.50
and by the time i reached cwp, its was 7 30?

school was alright, but really tiring.

choir was alright too,
dont know whether i wanna go for camp.
i can go for a day,
depending on when we are leaving for m'sia.


mdm ho's house.
was fun!=/

her kids are cute la.
abbel, is cute-cute.
and well sherman, is oddly cute.
the issue of him threathening to cane and hit his mom.
not cute at all, so naughty la.
kids this days~
seriously, if he was my kid, doing that in front of so many people?
i'd slap him. and i wont care a bit.

photoes are in lynette's blog,
i cant save it from her blog, so you go there yourself.
haven done anything for maths, hist and eng.
never bring hist home-so no choice.
maths and eng? later ba~

and i wanna get the cyber shot phone.
i know its kinda long le, but its still expensive- in a way, you'd know its good.
wopnder what mom would do.

its everything inside of you that make me like you.
but its the things you dothat make me wonder,
'is this really the guy i like, and would for a long time?
you confuse me with your actions.
and i dont like the idea of me doing so.


i feel sick, sound sick, and maybe is sick?
i dont shout, i dont scream, but zao sai alot.

today was well alright?
had lunch, and reached marina at around one plus.
play two games only.
sadly, pool table was out of order.
played at the arcade for at least an hour ba.

went to bugis for dinner, and look for cd shop with theng.
pei-ed her to tampines, and took a cab home.

mdm ho's house tomorrow.

its his gentlemanly-ness.


i was looking through this friendster profile of one of my friend,
she is graduated la, then she is actually at taylors college, malaysia.
i was thinkiing whether i should write a msg to her,
telling her my uncles works there.
then i was like ' wtf are you thinking rachel? are you lame or what?'
so i dint do it afterall. haha

i feel so sorry to esther.
cos i have like promised to ask my mom where sportsgirl is.
ever since that day she saw the necklaces i had from there.
which was what? a month ago?
i'll just get two toutou for her instead=D haha

its been raining this few days,
and its killing all my healthy cells,
or maybe converting it to unhealthy one.
i feel sick, blocked nose, sore throat. PLUS i keep zao sia-ing~!
and its damn embarrasing if your shouting in public or anything.
or talking to a stranger, and suddenly go like 5 notes higher.
very is VERY obvious.

its sylvia's bday tomorrow!
wish her a HAPPY BIRTHDAY<3
i'll get you a present soon.


DID YOU KNOW?
that mucus was made up of protien and carbo?
i dint, and i am so amazed to find out la.
i browesed through the nutrients de notes.

i hate studying myself.
cos there is like so much to learn.
and when i see it, i'll have the aiyah tonight then do feeling.
and i'll never touch it.
maybe i'll ask gor, he'd know a thing or two.

toby is like the cutest thing in the world.
except that he bites, bites and bites.
oh. and the way he pushins histoyy to your mouth?
like he wanna share with you, is totally cute, but not when its wet
wet toys near you mouth = disgusting.

theres things i wanna say, but dont wanna make too obvious,
shall keep to myself=DD