the day out with toby.

we went to that pets movers place.
i saw many puupies there.
and they are freaking cute.
the lab pups, chihuahua pups, and more
the chihuahua's are seriously small okay.
i felt like i could spueesh then to death with one palm.

toby went crazy, and cos i was carrying him.
he like moved here and there, so hard to mange.

went to this 'playground' place.
where there were many dogs,
russells, huskeys, lab, retrivers, schnauzers, jap chin, poodles, cockle spanners.
they poo-ed and the onwers did not do anything about it.
what irresponsible idoits.

AND i saw this poodle that was HUGEEE,
and i mean HUGEE.
i dont know if it was a normal breed,
but it did not seem so to me.
it was taller then the retriever, lab, and husky it was playing with.
FREAKKYYYY. its black and big. i cannot imagine la.
amybe its taller then my sitting on the floor.
ITS THAT TALL OKAY!
and its suppose to be a POODLE.
maybe they mixed it with some lab or something.
but its was a guy that went around lifting its leg and pee-ing alll over.

then there was this on 'heat' russell female,
and toby went on it. freaked me out.
i wondered, what if they rerally had sex?
how was i gonna be responsible for what toby did?
i cant imagine~

got toby a box atlast. the ones they use to keep them?
not cardboard ones=D
he cried the whole way back.
gave up, when we were about to reach.
veryyy marfan boy.

i hate myself for not being able to achievemy dreams because i have no guts.
i stopped ballet because i had not guts to dance in front of my dad.
if not, i might still bedancing and perfoming and stuff,
and would not be fat like now.
and would be able to do splits!
i've been having dreams of my doing them, i actually yearn for it that much okay.
i hated myself for not having the guts to wear the swimsuit. infront of others cos i'm fat.
if not, by now, i'dd have gotten loads of gold medals.
i HATE myself for not having the guts to join campus superstar.
i skipped it last year and will too, this time.
i admire others guts, to go for it.
i wish i had it too.