not gonna talk about what happen, so dont ask either.
if you know, dont ask me if im doing well, cos it doesnt help.
it will only make me cry again, even if i say im fine.

i miss him alot, and will take alot of time to get used to this new reality,

it feels weird cos i dont know how to react to this,
if i start hanging out with friends, and laugh, does it mean i dont care?
but i dont wanna stay home, cos then i will want so much to hear, see and smell him.
just the thought of everything, hurts so very much.

i love him.