i'll blog about Saint Valentine's Day another day.
not in much of a mood to load the pictures.

went for lunch with yuntheng yesterday at pastamania.
we had to wait till 2 for the student discount, and before 2,
she go and try and tempt me to eat Ajisens.
but she pulled me away anyway, cos she v long never eat at pasta's

I'VE GOT A JOB!
eventhough not like everyday one, cos may need to alternate with yt,
but hell, at least i have something to dread/look forward to!
better then rotting at home everyday.
salesgirl.

so i'll be going there tomorrow, to learn the ropes.
and would have to start work on sat.
w or w/o yt, also not comfirmed :(

and after reading all the Harry Potter book like 3 times,
i think its an awesome story,
cos i felt all the same anticipation, happiness, sadness, every single time.
and i still cry when sirius & dumbeldore died :(
so, ive decided to re-WATCH all the shows, 1-5
wanted to watch online initially, but the web no more, so v sad.
wanted to rent the vcd, cos dvd more ex, but only got two parts.
BUT! today i checked again, the web is UP!!!!!
so now, i have lined up like 10 movies-.-
haha, 5- potter, the other 5 is some here some there~
:D but got work, so dont know how. maybe one day one/ two?

and jasper had started to grow on me UNTIL i realised how dumb he really is.
i'll elaborate another day.
no where near Toby. *sighs

i remember how toby recognised orders easily,
like if you say 'who's that!' he will automatically stand up and look to the door for any strangers.
then if you say, 'where's your toy/ball!' he will run around the whole house to find one.
then you keep it, and ask again, he will find again, until all his toys is on your lap.
wasn't he adorable? i miss him:(

there is some things i regret and feel guilty toward him for, but i never told anyone.
i cry at night picturing everything, but i just find it real hard to bring this topic up to anyone now.
the things i should have done the the day before he died,
but did not cos i din't bare to see him at his state,
when i actually should have cos i know i was everything to him the same way he was to me.
but its all to late isnt it.
and whenever i take a bus to town, i would pass the hospital,
and i know he lays there, and it makes me really sad.
i really miss his company, and touch, and smell.
he is like a missing piece in my life.
i want him back. i need him back.
please give my baby back to me.