I'm sad, rather depressed actually, why must there be departure and arrivals in life? :(

Eka's leaving tomorrow, and it kinda shocks me that im feeling rather emotional about it.
maybe it shows that im maturing? dont know how to put it...
its different from sending a friend off overseas to study, or saying goodbye to relative staying overseas, cos you're gonna see them again, but not for her case...

well, at least she has my email account, and we can still keep some form of contact...
she has her own life to lead, doesn't she, rachel shan't be to selfish.
but rachel wants to be:(



anyway, ive finished reading P.S I Love You. the show and book quite different leh, book was much better of course...


i know ive moved on without Toby, but still i hold on to the memories, cos i know i need someone to love, jasper may not neccessary be the best, or anything i loved about Toby, but he is a baby which should get all the love he deserves. im not asking myself to love him just because i have the responsiblity, but because i........ i dont know, but all i know is that he is starting to grow on me.
and though i'm sorry for pushing him away when he was younger, i know he understands that it was all a dilema for me at that point of time, i dint want to give the impression that i'd move on that quickly, which i havent, but i chose to get a new dog to replace that empty space, too quick, which was a mistake, but we all felt that our lives were empty without a doggy companion.

does all ive said make any sense? if it dint, sorry, cos i dont know how else to put it...

random: i miss my baby.