i don't know what i want to blog about.

somethings are just too personal to type out here,
even though not many people read my blog.
but still, sometimes, when your bored, you hop.


i wonder what my future is like,
would i get married, would i have my own family, would i get divorced, would my marriage be a happy one.
people say life is short, so why so many things for us to worry about!


going out tomorrow.
looking forward to it? idk really.



i don't even know why i actually am like this now,
its so unlike me!
what am i doing to myself really.
i never knew that I'd feel this way.
and now that i do, its such a dilemma, and its creeping me out that i even am thinking about it.


is it right that you want someone more then you think you actually love them?