school starts tomorrow!
i don't know how i feel really, i don't feel like i totally dread it,
nor do i feel that I'm very excited.



my thoughts are a mess now, and i don't even know whats right or wrong.
so much that i don't even know how to describe what I'm feeling anymore.
what have i done to myself.

i think i know why till now, no one know what I'm talking about.
yes, they understand, but the know no details.
i guess its cos i don't have the confidence to talk about it, cos what a slut i would be.
and most importantly, I'm afraid that they'd tell me that what I'm feeling is not real.
idk how to put it though, it seems unreal to me, but yet i feel so much.
i don't know how i got into this mess, nor do i know if I'm ever getting out of it.