did rebonding liao!!!so happi...ok it turned out quite well...just have to hear lynette comments on it lata cos i am meeting her at cwp......but it smells real great!!!the sweet scent wow!!!i love it...but sleeping was a torture..i woke up lik four times last nite just to turn and adjust my hair to prevent it from turning out bad today...but lucky nth happened...hehe...zj sms me sae wad he and wm was watching movie...it is lik i wanna ask him not to tell me abt wm anymore???k so they dyed their hair...wow??i want to but my mom sae NO...ok i mean i shld hav known...haha...welll but if i am not wrong...she will allow me to buy some kinda spray for the wedding in aust...my cousin's...i lik his wife...Martina jie...but i hmm...wad shld i call her now?oh my...she is a real nice jie...i emember i think two years ago...my aunts wedding...then i was damn cold...she lend me her sweater lo...wahkakaka...she so good lo...haha.....i just saw the way to make my words bold haha...lame rite...ok wadvea...so now i am tryin out...fun!k...so i addin on again...well went out wif lyn today...she had don noe wad comment la...k...so we went timezone...then at first i ask lynette to call he ye to borrow money..but he neva on his phone...then call zj...then him(well something lik gav me the courage to do tat...wow!) cos oni he ans his phone...so he came and gav us twenty bucks!!so rich lo...ok then he ask lynette why she kept on covering her mouth...hahaha...but she was covering her___...cos she had a _____ ____wahkakaka...then she was damn paiseh!!!(i still hate him so i lik din even take a look at his cute face!!!but i don noe is tat cos i lik him so i shy or cos i still hate him...) after tat we went in to play some stupid games...then we went back to lynette's house...so tats abt all tat happened today...


ok...so i am addin on again...cos i recieve an email from wm...got one part he sae...u seem to b avoiding me...u angri wif me ar'...basically it is something lik tat la...so i lik tell him tat now wad i feel is hate towards him la...but lik wad kelvin sae...tat i hav to relax first...so i oso told him tat tats how i feel now...but when i hav lik cooled down and so on...maybe i might not feel tat way le...but now...i am veri lik confused...cos i lik still lik him alot...and oso have this slight hatered for him.....i just don noe wads goin on...haizzz..........


I still hate wm i'd suppose...but kelvin sae tat i shld relax...but to say the truth...i still lik wm ALOT...how?wads wrong wif me now?earlier i go for RSS P6 open house...then when i was abt to leave...i saw wm again...and tat totally dissrupted my mood...i was siann again...i went outside the busstop there and wait for one of my fren...then wm walk behind.....then i lik close my eyes...cos i lik din wanna see wm cos i scared i will break down...ok maybe i am thinking too much abt boys le...but lucky exams end le...result...not good at all man!!!to think straight...i hav to first get him out of my life...then get him out of my mind...maybe i can lik another boy...so i will forget everything...but it is not tat easy...cos how and why i lik him is lik wad shld i use?unique?it is lik nothing can replace tat u noe?i will neva forget him de...neva!!...even if i lik another boy...i will still remember him de...cos no matter wad...wad eva we hav 'gone through' in this around one month...is just too unforgetable...it is irreplaceble......how wad shld i do next?...i think it shld try and get him outa myy life first...tat will help alot de......i mean tats wad i think la...if anyone can help me get outa wad i am goin through...pls tag me and tell me i will appreciate it de...
help!!!everything is driving me to the edge...and i will fall of the cliff soon le HELP!!!!!!!!
arghh!!!!!IHATEU!!!IHATEUALOT!!!

Maybe is it cos i lik u too deeply le...haha.....WADEVA!!!


k...today was a kinda great day...i had a performance in sch..then the stupid CD got prob...so pai seh lo...finish singin tat time...qi qin tell me tat they saw wm...they meanin esther...marilyn and qin...welll at first i lik veri happi...or sad...don noe la...but then din see wm at all...so we laft sch for CWP...at first qin ask me wanna go find him anot...cos last day of sch le...lik she don wan me to regret or something...but i thought lik i mean wad i do when i see him...so we gav up tat thought...then we went Mac...i bought a set to share wif esther...finish eatin le...then we thought to go and take neo print...but i was listenin to my MP3...then all the song is lik sad sad one...then made me lik veri siann lo...so i din take...cos i noe i won be able to smile at all...then we went walk walk...then after doin somethings...we went home...now i feel lik veri siann...cos i still remember wad lynette tell me abt wad he told her...now...i don noe why...but hearin his name or seein him or anything tat is got to do wif him...makes me realli pissed of...i feel lik i m startin to dislike wm...or even worse...hate wm!!!but i still realli lik wm...i don noe wads wrong wif me lo...wad the hell...i think tat he will be the last boy i lik lo...lik wad i told nabil...i'd rather be a nun...damn siann lo...love/like realli does suck man!!!atleast to me la...unless u go through wad i am now...u will neva noe de...so before u disagree...think lo...haha....i think 'my immortal' by evanscence...de lyrics damn pei wad i feel now...shld be tat song ba...hehe.....waiting for zj to online now...so i can tell him tat i hate wm.....cos i m kinda sure wm will be at his house de...if not zj will tell wm de...
actualli...i don noe why i wanna do tat...but something in me i telin me tat i shld...how?of course follow ma heart and do it la!i think i am bian tai...ok wadeva...
k...tats all i hav to sae today...now gonna check if zj online anot.....i might add on after i tell zj...hehe...so i guess see u lata? to wm.....so wad if my english is pro???


Went back straight after school...and was locked out...darn...i forget to bring keys...but lucky...my maid just cam back then i got in...
i used the com 4 awhile oni then got this ppl frm NEA or something...i so scared he is fake lo...then i call my mom...she sae let them in...then tat man damn wad lo...see my luo han then he sae wad let his go le...blah*blah*blah*...
somethings wrong wif esther...just don understand her?!?!at this rate...we sure to break de...siann lo...den she follow qin and marilyn...lik wtf?!?u cannot lik tat lo...they might not lik it de...u are lik very extra...so i think lik u shld stick wif us...i mean this is wad i feel lo...tat time wad happen to lynette...u shld noe lo...(tokin to esther)...now...i am listenin to songs...see which wan i lik...then can put into ma MP3...lov the song "what can i do" by nan quan ma ma...it realli lik tell ppl wad i m feelin if i let them listen la...ahya...don noe lo...still thinkin of him...nothing has realli changed...well i guess i am the kind tat needs alot of time...maybe even one year...i mean why not?rite?......now around 5pm...and i m addin on...i just cried...mani things in my head...esther and lyn prob...his prob....i am goin crazy le...i don noe how long this can go on...i wish i had scored better for psle...then i will not come to RSS...not tat it is a bad sch...but it is the frens there and the prob we face...then i will not hav to meet and noe him...or anyone else...maybe i could have gone to the sch where all my pri frens go...maybe i'd be better off...but frens here are great too...but it is just the price i hav to pay to have them...life sucks man!y cant i just be a naive girl...then maybe i will not realise anything tat is goin on around me...then maybe i may not even feel all the sadness...over hate or even hurt...then i'd be better off then...then i will be a nerdy girl...tat look stupid and is stupid...then maybe i won bother abt boys lik my mom and concerntrate on ma studies...then i will not hav met or knowm him...tat will be the best lo....the prices are JUST TOO GREAT!!!added quite alot le..i gtg le...bye...i guess tats all for today le...unless anything happens again...hehe...maybe i m not the girl i always thought i was....F!


if u are readin my blog now...i guess u just got my wadeva to tell u abt my new blog ba!!!
Here goes : Had a real long day...tryin very hard to forget him...wanted to call nabil for lik two daes le... but cannot get him...so siann...realli need someone to tok to...if ma phone still hav money...will definitely sms wm de...hai...many things happened...just now i was online...and i tok to zj...then he damn cute lo...he made me laugh...quite awhile since i did tat..then he had to tell me tat wm was beside him..then i lik cannot tok so much le......the mani things tat happen...has made me real sadd...he said i was funny...and i was some what flattered...ok wadeva...he has gone to play ball wif wm...how free...o lvl comin le...still can play...shit y cant i just get him out of my mind???maybe zj realli wanna be a ps...haha...damn err....exams over...holidaes comin...i have problems...lynette has problems...esther has problems...i guess nabil is real busy...teeheehee....btw...i hav gotten over tat ashraf...don lik him no more..!
ahem* ahem* is worth alot...rite?am i love sick?wad is the syntoms?oh dear.....
maybe i m just too paranoid...well i cant help it...hehe.....this is my first time ma...
all the sec five leavin le...veri siann lo...i guess this is the first and best batch of sec five i hav met...there is the wierd zj wif weird dreams and oso is a ps wannabe...wm tat is just too cute..wl...tat is erm unique in his own way...heye tat is well erm friendly?gary tat is brotherly...and so on...maybe all i need is time to get over everything...well...time is all i need...
i hav to move one...cant go on lik this le...and i'd suppose it is the best for both of us...but it is real hard to move on...cos well this is just too unforgetable...
something weird happen to day...and i am still very confused...i think lynette and esther noe ba??
i guess tats all i hav to say for today...got to go and tell everyone abt my new blog...haha...