nothing much to blog about cos all i did these few days is cny stuff.

so today went out at around 2 to check out a garage sale.
gonna get the rattan 3-seater sofa,
cos the one we got from my aunt old liao= no cushion, v uncomfy

the good thing about going with uncle A is that when you want something, you get.
i dont mean like toy, gadgets and stuff la-.-
cos i said, i wanna eat dessert leh.
just something chocolaty-thick-cold-fudgy
something ive been craving for-everrr.
but we went to the apple shrudel place,
and i ate cookie-cream cheesecake which was kinda crappy:(
tempted to get brownies then, but dinner was nearing so....
(so pls ask me out if you know where i can eating something like that)

AND, jasper bite my lip!!!
like ARGHH!
he just jumpjump like crazy idiot, try and lick my face,
then his mouth always bang on mine-.-
then today he decide to make me dislike him more, and bit me:(
now is like ulcer:(

i seriously dont know why, but i dont like him-.-
i cant make myself although i agree how he is so whinny is so cute.
i just cant, which results in me being able to really punish him when he is wrong.
and sometimes i find myself thinking of toby while i hug him tight.
i know its really unfair to jasper, but dont even come and scold me.
i tried, i know like, 'to him, i am everything' but i just cany make him MY everything.


got back my phone wire from yt, so today got pics:D

before the more impt stuff, this is the color im talking about:)

AND, my broken nail :(



grandma called last night, to ask us out.
to see cny flowers.
she wants to get chun hua, (unfort-ly, i dont know the name in eng, so no pics for that.)

so mom called some neighbours, and we went of.
its really nice you know, all the flowers and stuff.
kinda awaken the girl in me, and i suddenly realise how much i loved them.
how their colors are so natural and bright.
i like them yellow and pink.
the way its yellow is so bright and attractive.
and some shades of pink between hot pink and light pink.

have one picture of the Gerbaras in the nice pink shade, but phone wire is with yt.
so i cant post.





i'll start the post nice.
mom went to get cny plants,
and she bought me my fav, Golden Showers!
otherwise known as The Dancing Ladies.





Outing with Lynette- Movies
she says i have to have a habit of blogging about occasions like this.
which i kinda agree. dont wanna lose those happy memories:)

watched Changeling, its was really good from my point of view.
good enough to be stuck on, and good enough for me to tear at the end.
jolie was really good too, when she was so freaked out and stuff, she couldn't decieve..

back to MOS cwp, drinks and snacks, with a stranger.
thank god it dint spoil the nature of virgo and scorpio...

pictures: (neoprints when scanned with with bro's help tonight)

im not the prettiest, so dont expect nice ones.

Day out with Fizzy, then gapo and ky- interview, then movie.

okay. so wed fizzy called me damn last min,
cos his cousin call him suddenly to go SSC Daiso for interview.
was obviously late, but we still had to queue for the interview.
waited for an hour, and the guy told me i not old enoughT.T
its a compliment, at a wrong situation.

so we cab-ed back to cwp.
i dint wanna go home yet, so made fizzy call up gapo and ky to come for a movie.
we watched Passengers. the end was kinda crappy though,
like what miss hesley used to say about ending a composition with "i woke up with a fright..."
just that for this, she was already dead-.-

Day at my place- Bridge, and MaJong

yesterday, est, yt and fizzy came over for the afternoon played a few round of bridge,
and then majong. on the FLOOR. haha, ya i dont have majong table... lol.

side track abit:
a T makes a V feel good, inside and out.
thus making T and V THE perfect match.

but, T is very physical (sexually), while V wants to sleep more.

how can i get you to know these? impossible isn't it?

❤when i lose myself, i think of you.

Family portrait is back.
but its kinda small... haha. nvm~

Daryl
Family
the funny thing about this pic:

dad came home, saw the pic and said. wa, rachel is taller then me...
i was kinda confused, cos i look slighty shorter then him
BUT, he then said, i was on a STOOL! lol.
damn funny. haha.
but i was on heels (so fizzy reminded)
oh well. i dont mind being shorter then my dad. but im taller then mom! :D



❤i've decided not to try so hard to make our paths cross.
its tiring and if it was meant to be, time will show.
it was all said and done.


my new found love.
im not gonna put his name anytime soon.
cos his other pictures are really crappy. lol

ever since i saw him act.
i kinda categorised the guys i will like to look like him.
lol. the simple, plain look. i don't know how to say la.
but i really like how he looks.
i ever dreamt of him la. lol.
only today i decided to come and look for his pictures. haha



having probs deciding on my course in poly.
but im sure i want it, so dont try telling me to consider jc.



❤i know you shouldn't, but i want you to.

Toby: i miss you, why did you have to leave?
you better be happy where you are, cos if not i'll be very angry with you, i miss you.
imissyouimissyouimissyou

im beginning to get bothered with what life would be like in the future.
like 10 years later, when we start work and blah.
wont it be freaky.
by then, would i be a university graduate, or just a diploma holder.
i dont know. its scary.


maybe it was for the better that i did do something about it.
atleast i have no regrets,
but everytime i go through something like that,
simple things will make me think,
and wonder into a world where things were what i wished they were.

stupid songs/ show/ thoughts make me sad.
shit that.


after telling lynette what alex told me,
and hearing her agree with him,
kinda freaks me out at how vicious she really is :/


i still do, and i still know.
but ohwell, life has so much more for me.
all packed ahead.

it all ended where it started,
a good thing not to get myself to into it.
or history would repeat.

❤but i wanted so much more.


funny week i am going to have.
in short, i went for a wedding lunch last sat, and stayed over at my cousin's
and i can home on sun. (qiu is cute, yet scary, haha)
Monday went for chalet, back today.
shan(family friend) called to ask about sleep over at jeslyn's cos i haven't confirmed.
so i'll be going to her place tomorrow night, and then back on sat.

its fun, but if my life will be like that in the future, hanging out here and there with friends.
i think i'll die of exhaustion-.-
i had around 7 hours of sleep each night, but yet i'm still tired.
slept at 2 on both night, and got awoken at around 3/4 when the rest came back, then wake up before 11. so unhealthy-.-

sleeping was the only time i wished i was home-.-

but had fun anyway, and kinda wish is lasted longer.

I'm really starting to get bothered by the fact that results are coming out soon.
cos that's when
1) we really separate
2) i have to think hard what i want to do for now, and in the future.

life is tough, choices that is.

few things i realised this chalet.
1) Jason thinks Nicolas cage is good-looking too!
2) KeeZi speaks sense, a very mature guy indeed.
3) shit- big- 2 is fun, but once a shit, always a shit:(
4) you aren't immature.
5) you've got sexy line down
(according to Esther's discovery which i really regret not witnessing myself haha)
6) junda is really very cute+ retarded
7) i will miss everyone in time to come.



❤liking someone is really tough, especially if you are a girl.
and worst when you know you wont see the other person anymore v soon-.-
so i'll end with something i realised.
i do like you, but i know it wont work.