sorry for the lack of updates.
massive picture post today, some very over-due-ed pictures,
Jasper, dinner with est and yt, Bday at home, and Malacca

some day that mom went to the walkway to do her 'gardening'



















Manhattan Fish Market and Cheeky Chocolates w esther and yt
yummy Chocolate Crepes
extra head
some lame stuff the love doing.


Froooooozen Hot Chocolate







the night of my boring bday.
see the stupid boy, so kpo.







Malacca trip.

on the way to mallaca, breakfast, yummy laska, which is actually curry noodles
bowl of wantons that look very good, but dont taste as good.
daddy slurping away.
Chicken Rice Ballz! they shrinked okay, last time i remember, they were much bigger,


supposedly the best Chendol, by the roadside some more, idk how good it is though, dont take Chendol.
a Peranakan restaurant we went to for dinner, a real Peranakan house, where some parts of little Nyonya was taken, so i heard.


pretty stairs

toilet
looong walkway, very long really, my picture doesn't do it justice.

Chicken bua keluak, Rendang, Chin-cha-lok omelet






school's been alright, tiring but alright.
everything's fine, nothing much to say. so another time then!
toodles!~


am going to be out of town over the wee
going to Malacca for a food trip, and hopefully shopping.

just sent Jasper to grandpa's place, and i feel sooooooooo sad:(
he must be feeling so sad now.


three sets of film used.
1st- 4 came out
2nd- 22
3rd- 35!

so I'm feeling confident about bringing it along, i hope i can take pretty pics that im proud of
cos some of my previous film, were like used for the sake of it.
so I'm gonna be serious this time:)

toodles~


school starts tomorrow!
i don't know how i feel really, i don't feel like i totally dread it,
nor do i feel that I'm very excited.



my thoughts are a mess now, and i don't even know whats right or wrong.
so much that i don't even know how to describe what I'm feeling anymore.
what have i done to myself.

i think i know why till now, no one know what I'm talking about.
yes, they understand, but the know no details.
i guess its cos i don't have the confidence to talk about it, cos what a slut i would be.
and most importantly, I'm afraid that they'd tell me that what I'm feeling is not real.
idk how to put it though, it seems unreal to me, but yet i feel so much.
i don't know how i got into this mess, nor do i know if I'm ever getting out of it.




picnic this morning,
i dint know 75 could get to Botanic Gardens!
can go again soon:)

it was alright, laughed like idiots-.-, ate, moved.
moved a lot i tell you, the stupid sun kept following us-.-
and i needed the move lor, on my way home, i realized i was sun burnt!
omg la, my arms reddd.
come home, look into mirror, I'm Rudolf, my nose burnt-.-

i wanna go swimming again leh, i like water, and i can use my new costume!
i think i totally needed a new one, cos the one i had, I've used since before pri 6,
which is before my menses started, and before i stopped weekly lessons.
cant wait till dad gets me my membership.
i will know if he is doing it, cos he'd need my picture:D

toodles~


been exercising lately, and parents are very happy about it.
ran the three times this week, so far.
and just went to swim this afternoon, 40 LAPS!
very happy with myself:)

parents are very supportive,
today aft swim, went to a French restaurant with A for dinner, then went to cold storage to get groceries for tomorrow's picnic,
told mom i needed a new swimming costume, and she spontaneously got it.

come home to 'thank' dad for it, cos my mom used his visa-haha.
and he told my mom that i needed running shoes,
and she was like 'oh ya hor! forgot.'

i like running now you know, the feeling aft when i sweat a lot, and stink.
haha, i feel refreshed cos like i 'detoxed' -.-
idk why i dint start earlier, nvm, not too late!:)

dad will get me my junior membership at Keppel's so i can go swim more too:)

positive change!



i want you even more now,
no matter how.
im doing all these for you,
and this feeling, is killing me.


tomorrow is the last day of work!
I'm looking forward to it, but at the same time, it would be hard.
I'd miss my babies!
esp my bombom Gwen, she is too adorable!

pics by this week. too lazy now.


embarking on a positive change.
so i think, i don't wanna meet my friends for like 2 months?
and shock you all when we meet again:)
hahaha, i wonder if it will work. I'm too dependent on fiends already.


i want to have one, with you.


outing yesterday was okay?

had AWESOME U.D.D.E.R.S ice cream, then headed to cineleisure for '500 days of summer'.
dint really enjoy it, i think its cos of how they like plot the movie.
correct way of putting?
and i was having a headache, that i wouldn't say was throbbing, but it was irritating, so i left after.

lacking sleep this whole month. which is resulting in DARK EYE RINGS!(AHHHHHHHHHHH!)
and headaches very often.


he loves them to much to care/ notice/ bother.
would i find one like that too?


i don't know what i want to blog about.

somethings are just too personal to type out here,
even though not many people read my blog.
but still, sometimes, when your bored, you hop.


i wonder what my future is like,
would i get married, would i have my own family, would i get divorced, would my marriage be a happy one.
people say life is short, so why so many things for us to worry about!


going out tomorrow.
looking forward to it? idk really.



i don't even know why i actually am like this now,
its so unlike me!
what am i doing to myself really.
i never knew that I'd feel this way.
and now that i do, its such a dilemma, and its creeping me out that i even am thinking about it.


is it right that you want someone more then you think you actually love them?



Yet i think of you constantly.
If only you were 20 years younger,
then it wouldnt matter.

what am i doing? i dont even know.


rachel is pms-ing:S

but sometimes, i dont get mom.
this isnt a hate- her post btw.
just now i came home with extra rice from grandma's
and mom was like asking me what she should do with it.
cos there was alot of brownrice.
the answer is freaking obvious right?
just keep in the fridge la!

so i waslike keep it la!
then she kept saying but got brown rice but got brown rice- wtffff.

so irritating!