bitch. i wanna know who he iss.
plsplspls. tell me can?
she me his picture. take one for me.
i'll pay for you?
love you lots<333

WTF IS THE SONG THAT JAY LIM SANG ON THE LAST FINAL RESULT SHOW???
WHOM EVER THAT KNOWS.PLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLS TELL ME=)

i'd be sooooooo fucking grateful to you<3

rachel loves jay sososo much<333


isent it realli painful how you like someone.
but he/she doesnt feel the same way?
and worse.if he/she actually ever liked you?
then you wait. and wait.
but duhh to no good end.
you feel like there aint no point. and you should just move on.
but its just somehow so impossible.
you know there aint no point finding out why he/she did that.
but you still really wanna know.
and yet you are afraid to ask.

there seems to be so many types of heart ache and love.
that one day you'd realise. waaa. so lame. haha.

today was a friday.
went library after school.
then ling and qinghao came over to my house.
watch dvd. then qing hao fell asleep.
haha. he sleep till very cute. lols.

and even when the day comes.
that you moved on.
i might just wait.
i'd still chose you<3




school was okay.
its was a wed.so there aint much to say about.

after sch went to dental with qiqin.
we bought some food before going up to the mrt.
qiqin.was like eating it.
and helping me to 'cut' the food into pieces.lols.
we reached.she had her dental.
then we went to mac for lunch.
crapped about zj, nric guy, and somemore.
then we went to the taopayoh hub and walked.
bought stuff. earings and rings.
then we walked behind de souza having a interview.
haha. that real talk show. hopefully mom doesnt accidentally watch it.
just in case that part is shown, or i might just be killed.

was on the mrt. and my back was acheing.
then i told qqin how i wanted to like do a split.
haha. feel so lame. cos i acted it out.

qiqin said that we would have alot to say for today.
but i already forgot everything. how?

i wanna go for that race!
but the thought that half the money is going to the school.
kills the spirit. doesnt the school feel ashamed for being so cheapskate?
wtf. its like forcing us to give la. but without asking.
what kinda logic is that?
i realli hope a teacher reads this.

they are coming over tomorrow. doing brownies.
feeling like doind choc cookies too.
but dont know got time ma. thats all for today!

stop acting like a goody.
its so fake. and obvious.
cant you just stop acting like some guai kia
and show your true colors?
cos it doesnt turn me on anymore.

is it fake or not.i realli dont know.


只要能够远远这样看着你
就算伤心心里还是好想你
我好希望整个地球只剩下我和你，
我就能勇敢的说，我还爱你.

today was okay.
rushed home to cook mac and cheese<33
because jie had puasa. i decided to make her the pocket pizza.
because the ingredients were the same.
so i just make the dough. i so nice right?
so that mean. i cooked today's dinner!!!
shouts!

there wasnt anymore pasta sauce at home.
so i used chilli and tomato sause mixed together.
i am sure it taste nicer then pasta sauce.
cos pasta sauce is sour.
and i dont like sour stuff. so ya.
the pocket pizza i made today turned out nicer then the one i made for pract exams>.<
but wadeve. i think its cos i sqeeesed it while trying to put it in the oven.
oh wadeva. so i ate it.and feel inlove with it<33
i dont lik pasta sause. pasta sauce will give out water?
but chilli and tomato doesnt.
loveees!

iwishicanbeachefwhenigrowup=/
lols.i dont wan.i think the pay not very good.

我好希望我会忘记说再见的是你，
我不再回忆，也不再伤心

if you wanna read the chinese words.
change encoding to unicode.then you can read le=)


no one knows.
no one understands.
the feeling that is inside.
one that i should not express.
but one i have kept inside.
for soso long.
should i just say it?
or should i forget?

today was okay.
had homeecon practical exams.
i was like damn kan choing at the start.haha.
and everyone was like having fun?
i wonder how they do that.
like.hellp its exams?!?!?
i would have freaked out and fainted if i did not do finish on time.
it was funny when i put the pizza into the oven.
i like just put one end.then push.
i always do that.
then today so suay.
the thing fell and the pizza's we like squeesed together.haha.
give me a huge shock!

byebye!


but i never seemed to forget-


today.the usual and same old stuff.
but the sms-ing just entertained me all the way.
haha.oral was alright.
although i read like two words wrongly.
every other thing was okay.

you give me a meaning in life.
bring me up when i was down.
but dropped me just like that.
with no warnings what so ever.
but till now, you'd act though nothing ever happened.
it seems you erased your memories.
erased the past.
erased me.

time after time, you let me down.
but i never seem to give up.
why do i still feel the same way?
i know time did not stop.
but i feel like my life was at a hault.
ever since that fateful day~

my comments on si top ten.

norman-he can sing!but still he is not cute=/

gayle-she is pretty.and sings.soso.

emilee-i used to hate her alot and curse her to get lung cancer.but she okay la.nice figure.but i still dont like her angmoh accent when she sings.

rahimah-dont like her.sshe like fakes her voice all the time.although it make the song nicer and stuff.she is a tomboy-that acts cute.

jay-LOVE HIM<333.he is like so cute to me.he can sing.although he should have joined superstar.but i stil love him!

joakim-no one likes him.right?

nurul-little girl voice.but good looking.

paul-KAWAIII!he is cute.and i love his singing.although it isent very good.

matilda-she can sing.sad she was out.but she shoud watch what she wears.haha

jasmine-dont like her.and never will.

top two.
i realli dont care who wins.
hady-can sing anythong and everything.has some looks.
john-he has this look that is very charming.so all the girls prolly vote for him.he can sing slow and low songs?

bboth can sing.so wadeva.
as long i dint see jasmine up there=)
off to hear the result!
and maybe scream.

byebye!




so last nights party was nice.

stayed almost all the tiem in my rooom.
with sylvia,irena,kaiwen.
it was fun la.
i knew sylvia with activate everyone's hyper-ness.
haha.so we were laughing,screaming and wadeva-ing.

we played big twenty-one first.
then i dont know who invented theshout,a high pitched one.
that meant pass,
so we just screamed everytime we wanted to pass.
beverlyjiejie said she could hear us.haha.
guess i need to save up and get a sound proof door ya sylvia?

then we played cards.uno.
and they started wanting to record me laughing...
so laughed and stuff.
but dont know if they can load the sound into the com.haha.

ate cheese.blue cheese,
and fargur.some goose liver thing from france.
the last time i ate it wa on toast.
it tasted nicer that time.

the day passed so fast!
if i knew i ask tong to ask her dad if she can stay over earlier.
the cake was yummy.
but sylvia doesnt eat cake.and kaiwen doesnt eat banana.
i love it<3

i slapped you speechless.


and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~
i'll talk about yesterday.we celebrate and ate the cake.
the pics are in my cam.maybe i will load after tomorrow.
after the party.and some other photoes.

today was funfunfun.
had a realli great day.
first mom drove me to school=)
then i got like pfour presents in sch?
reallirealli big ones.haha.
than after sch,i went home straight.
with the HUGE bag. i felt kinda paiseh.
cos its a realli nig bag.so i look like just came bag from some mini toons sale.haha
met up with then and they passed me my present.
then we took to mrt.

at marina bay station.
in the mrt.














went to meet est at marina.
i admit i was kinda shocked when i saw est=/
but after awhile.she looked nicer.
maybe i wasnt used to it.
we started playing bowling.
i kept getting 000000 in the end.i scored 10?
cos i only got the technique right at the ending part.
played another round.
then we went to the arcade.
played the racing car thing.and the hitt thing.
haha.i just just spend ten buck like that.scary hor.
had dinner at the dragon boat place.
















then lynette's parents fetched us back.
the five of us squeezed it the back seat.
it was haha la.but dont know how to describe.

THANKS TO ANY AND EVERYONE WHO WISHED ME,GAVE ME PRESENTS AND TESTIMONAILS.AND SOSOON.<333

somethings missing-
but i just dont know what it is.

no money eat seoul garden.STILL GEI KIANG!

GOH QINGHAO.
14YRS

i wanted to add his photo.but dont have.anyway.
just wrote this because he just told me he would be officially bankrupt tomorrow.
so people look out for the classified paper.
sont just look for jobs.lol

decided to blog while waiting for ling to load my 'TALK SHOW'
haha.taped it with her phone at eliz's house.
its really horny.but whatever.
do go and see=))
http://www.runandfree.blogspot.com/
there.my laogong's blog<3

we went to eliz's house after sch.
but i just slacked allll the way.
tomorrow going seoul garden.
NEHNEH IS GOING!
so ling will go.
and i will go.
and then we can let qinghao come in.
and make our very own NON-BEEF table.
aint i nice?specially accomodate qinghao
haha.

collect the cake tomorrow.
wanna ask someone to bring it home for me.
dont expect me to bring it allll he way to bukit panjang right?
plsplspls.anyone who live near sch.pls do help!


blogging before dad wakes up.
apperently.he is back.

sat-
went for dinner somewhere.
then had sewnsens.
long time since i ate my sticky chewy choc.
it dint turn out that fantastic,

sun-
out the wholeee day.
big jui got another parrrot,
this one,lighter but i dont like.
she is called mei nu?
zhai tried to 'groom' he.
but ended up getting frightened by her.
haha.so scaredy cat.

today-
sch was okay.
but damn boring...
after school.went for lunch.
then bought a 1 1/2 ckae.
45 bucks?
quite cheap la.
but still whom ever that dint pay.
dont even think of licking off the bottom.haha!
i am mean!=))

went to lynette's house to do the project thing.
then went home.
the experience was fun
THANKS TO QIQIN.
haha.she starts all the thing.everytime.
but make me like it after awhile.
haha.so freakishly fun!

four day to bday=)
dont forget to get me my prezzie=D


okay yesterday after sch marilyn can over.
and we waited for lynette.
then we went back to cwp.
cos lynette had to go see her doc.

reached the after a very very long walk.
while trying to find the place because of the IMF thing.
then see saw the doc.
we met up with amalina.
then nabil left.
what we saw we so shocking i dare not say i forgot it.
cos it really left a very big impression.

we reached the place after dinner.
the show started.
ms chu sing so nicely=)
and i am like so happy that ms chu is actualli
good friends with one of the juz b member<3
so i very liked the temasek poly students?
then my immortal son was sung so nicely
then was the group the sand gei wo yi ge wen.give me a kiss in chinese.
because the it was a guy that was singing it.
people started shouting okay!
lols.then that guy put his arms on his waist to show he was 'angry'
haha.he sings very well.joel?dont know how to spell.but its prounced that way.

after the performance.
me,line,nette.
went over to the stage wanting to take photoes with juz b.
most importantly hamza?dont know how to spell.but pronounced that way.
we took the group photo.
and pleaded with ms chu to help us tell hamza we desparately wanted to take a photo with him.
WE DID!we shook his hands AND FREAKING HUGGED HIM!
but its was thanks to lina.that we dared to do so.haha.cos she hugged him first<33
so next was weiqi.for milubing that one.
we took pic with him and shook his hands.
fuckfuckfuck!what a happy day!

so the camera man will end the photoes to miss chu.
and she says we can bug her for the pics.
ms chu actualli has a Fiancé dont know how to spell la.
when she introed him to us.
we were all stunned.
then she asked us.
why?shock for what?because he is white huh?
lols.ms chu is so cute.and she is the president of the accapella association.
when i grow up.i wanna be like her.
then i can get a angmor hubby,know many singing shuai ges.haha
she is one women i look up to<33

cant wait to get the pics!
i'll laminate it.then frame it.
and put it all in my bedroom<33

hamza is sooooo keaii<333


so i was having my tuition when i heard.
"i am sorry.JASMINE!!!"
i almost screamed la.
i just like jump up abit lucky rene dint see.haha
i am so happy.
to say the truth.jasmine is like last year de olinda.
prolly people will get her to do slimming treatments.
cos she has put on quite alot of weight during the shows.
haha.i am not saying i am very smilm la...

i hope hady wins.
he sing better thn john in a sense he sound more matured.
but john has the whole package.
just like last year.
hady=taufik
john=sly
jas=olin.
i dont like taufik.he is so ugly la.
why everyone thinks he is shuai?

today was quite okay.
sat with ling<3
hope that tomorrow.
somehow neh can help me squeeze in my table.
then can renuion le!

and i saw him.when i was in mos
i was happily eating my fries
when i turned over to look at the counter.
cos i am seating the seat nearest to the toilet.
then i was like UHH?
OMFG!WEIMING?!?!?
i started shivering and stuff.
why?wadeva.
then i like stuffed all the food in my mouth.
hoping to leave faster.
haha.scary!

i realli dont know what i wanna do now.
its like so delime-ing.


rene cancelled tuition
i get really pissed when he cancels tuition and tells my mom only.
atleast he imforms me right?
or maybe a simple sms?
like i am the one having tuition!

got back my eng paper today.
i failed.11/25
but after checking thoroughly through my paper.again and again.
i got back two marks.
so i pass.
the first one was cos the teacher missed out a point.
the other one was beacuse mdm titi was leinient.

i agree with what qiqin said.
mdm titi should give them marilyn and esther's paper.
so they can check for more marks.
but wadeva~

choir was alright.
until jeremy came.
and starrted teaching us some lame theory?stuff.
like anyone would listen.
or even absorb and understand.

then we went to take neos.
so fun taking.
me,nette,amalina.
amalina is like so cute la.
her laughter and stuff.
she like so gundu like that.
laugh over every single stuff.

felt very guilty for pang seh-ing her.haha.
but she is like getting more and more dont know what.
so i dont really like her.
even amaline thinks so=x

sorry for doing that.
i did it somehow unknowingly?
really sorry.




i like found out sooo many thing today.
like its kinda shocking la.
but glad that i dint find out many bad stuff about me.
haha.wadeva~

normal school day.
but havent got back me eng and lit.
i passed my home econs.
so i'd prolly fail two subs this time
which is a sign of improvement.lols.

making some realli cute cake.
but dont know leh.
keep having the feeling i will never suceed.
or the cake wont.
it prolly go wrong.
then i have to add vinegar?!?

the extra money i am going to...
lols.i dont know.
most prolly will give to the class fund ba.
we'll be going sarah house to do.
cos i want the cake to be 100% halal.

when i went around asking for money.
the people will ask why.
then i have to say ...
i feel them paiseh la.
like so bhb like that.
make everyone give money to make cake for my birthday.
lols.but it will also be with nabil and yazid.
so hai hao ba.
yazid is on 19 sept.
me and nabil on 22 sept.
so we do it on 20sept.thurs.
haha.so clever right?
then i will cream out our names and stuff on it.
dont even know if the cake will suceed and i am thinking so far.lols.

till then.bye!

maybe you should be pissed.
ya.you really should.


practising the blog song now.haha.
cos i just printed the lyrics.
and i just realise they realli are different.
shit.where can i get the other versionb de lryics?

okay.so today started off with geog.
and obviously i failed.
i never pass.
its like impossible?
the worst is the teacher actually put ''why dint you study?''
how on earth am i suppose to show my mom that paper?
lols.
then was maths.
i got A1.who cares if many people got that?
i did!and i dont think mom will bother to call teacher up to askhow many got a1.haha
so ya.thats happy!
then hist i passed too.
so this time.i think maybe i will only fail two subs.

unless i fail my english.
that time i can kill myself!
lols.other then that.i quite happy with this time de results!

choir was okay.
and i am going for the a cappella performance thing.
yaye.i think its partly because of my a1.haha.
its like from 7.30 to 10pm.
i am kinda scared la.
dont know how to say.cos uts like going to be my first time going home so late.
worst of all.i have to cross the highway myself.
how freaky is that.mom prolly wont bother to come and fetch me.
oh well.and even if i had the money.i dont think i wanna take a cab.
heard too many ghost stories about ghost in taxi le.haha.

so how?i suddenly dont feel kenn about it.
but what ever.dont feel like turning back too.
cos its an experience.
like we'd prolly take a cab.then mrt?
depends on them.
and wear home cloths.
i dont know whatthefcuk i should wear.

you guys are so sweet.
its the envy for many.
suddenly realise that they dont exist in our class anymore.
haha.so dissapointing!

you arent my dream.
its reality.but still i wish its a dream.
everyday i wake up.
i tell myself.omfg.its already over for so many months?
but somehow.i still dont forget.
even when i know it wasnt even for real.
how come i just cant face reality?slapmecan?

gosh its september 11?!?!
its the annivesary for america twin tower bombing?
happy the nothing bad happen le!
happy annivesary america??
wadever


today we just watched a hongkong?show.
filmed the music project.
and then played twister!!!
it was so fun la.
haha.love that game!

three pics from tues.
the day out with sylvia and aqilah.

aqilah and me<3




















the cow i bought.[pic by sylvia]
















the three of us.with a moo-ing cow.[taken with aqilah's cam]



had choir today.
sang and stuff.
took noes with roshni and lynette.
then went home le lor.

i think the sturborness should go.
you've proved to me wad damage it could have done.

how will i fair in tomorrow's acting?
i dont wanna know.haha

off to write a testi youyouyou~
[clue(the BEST person-.-)]


walked the whole day in orchard.
and my feets are aching.
put a new wallet,a cow soft toy,and some other stuff.'
the walk was fine.
with sylvia and aqilah.
we like crappe alll the way.
so fun.
the start was abit awkard.cos we havent met for long time.
but it was fine after.

isent it such a waste how steve died?
i mean.if he had died being bitten by a croc.
i wont feel so sad for him.
cos its like his passion and everything.
when i grow up.
i wanna catch that stingray and eat it.
HAHA.along with alll its lower generation.
its called retribution-

wait for aqilah to load the pics we took.
and lazy sylvia to scan the nneos=))

stupid sylvialiew.
just because you are jealous.
dont need to call me bitch right!
but i love you too<33
foreverandever.
haha.(i feel so lame)

and there is no tuition tonight<3

cant believe that she ever liked him.
of all girls is her.
its like such a shocking thing to find out.
because she is like known for not liking anyone.
dont her friends feel zhi bei?
that they dont even know this kinda stuff?
i mean.they still claim to confide and be BESTIES.
its such a big joke.

you made me a bitch.


going for check up today.
thats all i have to say haha.

went ah ma house last night.
big jiu got a parrot.
he is so kawaii.
haha.its grey.
so most likely its a guy.
he is called zaizai!
he is still like 3 months old.
so last night i fed him will the injection thing.Syringe?
anyway.i have to open his nouth.the like 'force feed him'
but actualli thats how his parents do it.
if not the wont eat.
i love him.

i saw qiuqiu last night too.
with his new hair cut.
omgomgomg.he is sooo cute la.
cuter then last time.
lols.thinthin.cuteee<33

ma's going to get a mixed breed of jack russell and bull terrier.
both kind of dogs looks cute when young.but not when old.
show you them.

jack russell:

YOUNG.








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bull terrier:

YOUNG








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THIS SHLOUD BE HOW THE MIXED LOOKED LIKE.
pupppy time~







i dont realli like the idea of a jack russell.
they are like the last ones i'd think of.
i think mummy is weird.
she can go and get a free dog.
of any kind from one of our relatives.
but she wanna take this one.
that relative like said so long ago that at anytime.
my mom can go over and take a look.
chose one she likes and bring it home,
till no.mom hasnt done anything about it.
WTH!


how would you feel if you lived in a three and half storey house.
common right?
but what if.your house is the out of no where?
hai hao right?
but what if you actualli bought the land yourself.
designed it yourself too?
AND.each storey of your house has its own kitchen.
you have a personal lift.
a pool.and a goddamn big garden.
i'd go mad.haha.

uncle naidu's father in law lives there.
he bought the land where the temporary newton circle was set up.
winsedt road or something.
his house is like the only one there.
no house for like 1 km away.
but its no like some deserted place.
there is lik three petrol stations near it.
i dont realli like that thought la.
but anyway.the house is such a beauty!

i bet you'd never afford it.stop acting rich.it really disgust.
accept the fact that you are poor.and live with it.


had lunch at some korean restuarant.
it was quite nice la.
tried the kimchi itself
its taste realli salty.
you need lots of rice to go with it.

we ordered
fried kim chi rice,pancake with seafood,ginseng chicken soup,kimchi soup,fried dong fen and the beef thing that you cook the wrap in lettuce.

the kimchi fried rice was okay.
not as salty as kimchi itself.

the pancake is made of rice flour.
so its like qq one.i liked it.

the chicken soup was really really nice.
because we were using the korean type of spoon.
it has a realli long handle.
so its like very cute la.
you must try it yourself to understand.

kimchi soup was just the hot-and-watery-version-of-kimchi
lols.but it went nice with the white rice.

fried dong fen was nice too.
the dong fen was thick.
and its was god damn tangy.
its korean's speciality.
my mom says her cousin's with whom is a korean knows how to cook it really well=)))
three cheers for her!!!

the beeef thing was nice.
i stuffed the whole beef wrapped lettuce.
and its was nice that way!

i kept coping how koreans eat their food.
cos my mom keep watching korean shows now.
so girl usually are very messy.
they stuff like the whole thing in.
and they don ip out of the spoon.
they and bite the whole sppon for the soup.
then they will like sss sss cos its realli hot.haha.
i did all that.the food tasted nicer that way you know.

then we went bata to get my school shoes.
i bought another pair of shoes.
even though i was suppoes to get the other one.
that i planned to get.
but wadeva~

HAPPY DAY!